i think there's absolutely merit to this idea that you can't be truly happy and fulfilled in life as long as you compare yourself to others without a doubt. I literally just ran a google search on impostor sindram. It was like successful business persons, successful novelists, one after the other talking about their experience with impostor Sintram. One of the most powerful methods for working through o c d is called exposure therapy. A tactic ryou expose yourself to the fear that you're experiencing in order to normalize the anxiety. There was a lot to this episode, but if you take from it,  your feelings of fraudulence over skill are incredibly normal