A Concussion Is Like Surviving Up on Stage

I started having panic attacks inauditions and not being able to addition properly. I was becoming dangerously suicidal every time i would drink. The voice that speaks very solemnly and soberly to us in crisis moments is the still small voice of a mormon. It's this voice that says, you're going to be ok. We have to hold the show. You can't stop yourself from panicking. When i'm off stage, if someone could just talk to me, i just need to like try to get it outside of myself before i have to go back on stage. At 18  i said, i don't know how i was able to leave at 18 but weirdly