How long was the gap between these things happening in your life and then you deciding that you want to go on your journey to be a psychotherapist. Well, they're not the only the only events to my life with things have kind of gone wrong. I won't go into some of those things that's between me and my therapist. And certainly in the thoughts of me helping other people. It needed to get through to the next stage so I needed to go to therapy for for those disasters.