How Did I Get My Self Compassion When I Was 13 Years Old?

I felt so much forkin ame at having let myself down, because when i was 17 18 out of school. And it's happened every year since i've left school. I did six years of not achieving any goals,. Like and il identifying as a class clown, or identifying as a mad bastard. That's where my self esteem comes from. They're heavy defence mechanisms there. So i've no doubt that the amount of lying to myself on a daily basis that i had to do contributed to my massive mental health issues. School was fun. I had lords o crack. But the summer after leaving start, i felt deep, deep shame. You're actually really smart, and you