You need to acknowledge that you're unlovable, and acknowledge that you can't be independent. And understand that for the rest of your life there's a chance that when you die, you will still be broken. If you can do that, then you'll start to move forward. It's really hard for me to like, quit, or like, not even quit. I haven't teached, taught recently because they close down all the classes due to covid but like, i'm always trying again. You see, twit chat, trying hard doesn't Doesn't pay you.