I had death scares every night. This was a confirmation that you've got a couple weeks and you're going to die. And I just felt like I would feel better about myself if I improved my condition a little bit. A personal death or a personal salvation isn't salvation. It's not real. We all have to do it. Decline of the world, existential threat is happening throughout history. There's always been something threatened us but not high enough because stakes are so low. But when we do change, actually pivoting our lives around this thing called life, then things start working for us again.