Is There a Certain Stability in Your Life?

Every single time I go to a place, even though it's not going anywhere, you know, as a irreparably speaking, I can still wake up tomorrow and take a tram for that place if I want it. So then like I started doing it for my own purposes as well, like I was just going to a place and then I was just like very bad photos,. You know, if like a street corner or whatever because I would just like, what if I'm being owed to me that time that I left is the last time I would ever see. And so I find myself in a situation where I could be with the PhD, which is why it's been so difficult