I'm a Victim, but I Can't Reverse It, Right?

Cattolus is very candid about his sexual ambiguity. He says in this poem that, I'm doing it... I know the Latin, but I won't do any good to say that. So what he's suggesting is that this urge to ... I don't want to use a mutilate because that's sort of the Roman idea. The idea that you're going to alter your sexuality is something that's irreversible and it's sort of a fit that you're in unless it's carefully done and you'll regret it. This is somebody writing around 40 BC who must have seen people do this under the guise of being servants of civilly."