"There's no way in which the facts mean anything until they're filtered through the meaning making machine of the of the narrative and then he says have i distorted events so so they more closely follow the arc expected of a confessional narrative." "I've been recording everything since i started working on this project and i've consulted the recordings repeatedly when writing this but in my choice of which details to include and which to omit perhaps i have just constructed another story," she said. 'i'm doing something i never thought i'd do i'm granting public access to my life vlog such as it is take a look at the video and decide for yourself' She added that her self was disintegrating