Lay: I do want to say, like, your work has helped me a lot. Even if you feel like you don't have like revelation right now. Can you help me understand that a little what's been helpful? You did this interview, i think with, i can't find it. But it was like a meditation. Wore like, you, you could feel your the you higher than you,. Like, pulling your thoughts back and realizing there is a soul. Ouknow, its just tha hopeless feeling. And so i find myself being like, well, if you do just quit now, you're just going to be going back into it. So i might as well