If someone feels like they're unlovable, it's going to bounce every time until you deal with that emotional thing. So if you want toe discover your confidence, you have to start by exploring where your shame comes from. It's because your mind has that emotional energy from being 16 years old and getting into that third college the i d e and you felt so ashamed. And now what it does is pop up. The more you played the video game, the more you buried the shame you felt behind other people.