How Do I Understand Who I Am?

When you discover things about your past, it changes who you are now. And it might even reconfigure what your future options are like. For example, what if i found out that a 15 years ago, or 30 years ago, when i was a child being brought up in my parents home? That will change my past. It changes how i think about what has what i've gone to bring me to this place now. So i'm rethinking episodes from my childhood. Oh, that's why our relationship changed. Oh, ia think about my lived experience? And then, ah, sort of construct that anew in a lived way, not in building thought structures. How do i