Wait Without Hope, Wait Without Thought

When you are sure that what you want to do is play the piano or whatever, and at first it comes naturally. Then there comes a time or you have to pursue the sound that you really want to make. And still may have no name, but the image is getting clearer. Every experience of joy and fulfilment is like another track in the pursuit of this creature which is your future self. There was a time when i was obsessed with feeling like i was becoming something,. All i could hear in my mind was this younger girl's going, you are a great big lesbia. Well, there was also t s eliot, another great bigLesbia, famous, famously lesbian.