Merlin: I have gotten much more okay with the fact that what I do is not for everybody. But if I do the best version of what I feel like I can do and have more good days than bad days, hopefully, then that's all I can really do. He says he would never in a million years want to change a thing that we do about Jug is John in order to try and attract some people. "If it's not obvious from a lot of this prattling, it can take me a pretty long time to figure things out," Merlin said.