The Fear of Anger

I remember touring and I had a... I bought a gas mask because everybody smoked cigarettes. They'd never tried the agarmeister. How that night ended was East German police with guns to the back of the head of the tour manager,. The bass player and the sound man punching the singer out, quitting the tour. And then we got kicked out of the hotel at like one or two in the morning. It took going through strapping to get to the point where I was able to sort of rationalize what had happened there. But it was through that that I recognized my motivation was like a fear of anger.