Is There a Form of Existence Where I Would Pick That Over Never Existing?

I think there's an attraction in the idea God as ultimate cosmic being and benevolent cosmic being could endow your life with the right sort of meaning. There are certain atheists who deny that God would give us the requists for the purpose some of them put on a kind of brave optimistic face. If you were created to fulfill God's purposes then you're really just an agent of God but if there's no God we can do what we want to do, he says. I don't think it is so address I just  don't think it's true right? We've got this kind of vague hand waving suggestion about how God would provide you with a requisite form of meaning but the