I've Been Running for a Long Time Now, and I'm Still Not Sure What to Do

i've done three park runs, and each one has been slower thelast interesting. It's not really been going the way i i hoped. Erm, there have been some positives, for sure. But quite quickly i found i was very directionless with my running. I didn't feel i knew how much i was doing. And so it takes away so much of the sort of regimentation of running that we impose upon ourselves.