When i make a mistake, ah, i feel self loathing, right? So it's a certain kind of mistake. It's an irreversable mistake, something that cost costs me an opportunity. I tent to go into swearing fits to suppress blami, feeling bad about things that tike mistakes ive done. And like you're not worthy, and maybe you gase yeur chosen ones. That, once again, is a hypothesis for you that like, you know, this self loathing. But boy, do i like it more than anything else that you cap sat.