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The Delusion of Killing Yourself
In 1993 one of my best friends in the seal teams killed himself. Alton Lee Grisard he got murdered along with a female naval officer named Kerionil they got murdered both of them by another Navy officer who also went to the Naval Academy then killed himself so murder suicide. In December of 2012 another seal that I knew who was the commander of the seals in Afghanistan on deployment shoots himself and that kills himself no suicide note no strange behavior no indicators nothing. For me it felt permanent it felt inescapable it felt concrete I felt like I had a column of evidence exhibit A through Z to indicate that I would be better off killing myself. It's something I know is out there like