How Do You Dislodge Yourself?

I'd invested ten years of my life in this place, and suddenly i was getting the rewards. I'd found the carrots, as you'd said, and they tasted damn good,. And i thought, do i really want to become the person that i would have to become to get to the next level? Or do i want to pack it all in while i'm at the top? Cause it felt like i was at the top at that time. But as you all know, tops very soon become platos. The thing that's fascinating to me there is, how do you dislodge yourself? Because yet, by your own description, you got really good at manipulating and playing the machine