The truth is that we learn how to not be authentic because being authentic usually doesn't go over well. A lot of times what causes us to use substances is we have all these crushing, carmic debts which are weighing on us right? Oh, my god. O my god. We've got some kind of negative emotion in here that we carry with us. And that negative emotion is what makes us reach for the alcohol more easily. The truth is, in current form, is a 23 year old who constantly feels like he's either flying or drowning. Maybe that's just what it is to be your twenties, i don't know. Or maybe that's just me.