The Importance of Value in Life

I'm super aware that I have a history of depression and this may just be mental illness speaking rather than any sort of objective valuation of the facts. Even if you knew you're gonna lose like in the three worlds collide let's say  do you want to go down fighting or do you want to just spend the last eight hours curl up in a ball and crying? It doesn't matter if you win or look like at the end winning is preferable but it's not necessarily just about winning it's about the but at least it's a big deal causing pain to the enemy continues afterwards If everything was to stop existing I'd be like okay I don't know whatever also I would put all