I've Come Out, and I'm Having a Hard Few Weeks

i have really had a hard few weeks. i moved away by myself to take a new job, and my husband's not come up. And now there's just a lot going on besides the fact that i've come out. I'm having to grieve over hundreds of people. But it's also ok for me to feel bad about th people, even though they've hurt me,. Even though they've treated me really badly.