I'm a Writer, and I Must Know This Too.

i think a lot of whenever i have felt the most love and passion and obsession for mathematical concepts. It came from something intuitive. In this way, it plugged into whatever i feel intuitively inspired by. For me, it would be like conway's game of life,. that i can get stuck on a rabbit hole of the internet forever - not really understanding it on a deep level, but understanding it at an intuitive level. I start to feel the train of thought that i think game of life is supposed to inspire in you. And then i see people who have created starting conditions where they create an infinite, fractilized game of life inside of game of life or there's terring