A, you sometimes joke a little bit about becoming an anger elemental. You don't have particular cognitions or thought processes. It sounds like there's a lot of emotion that you're experiencing that's quite negative. I had kind of put myself through my own version of a b a as a kid growing up because i saw the way he was treatedMy uncle a is mentally challenged and also likely in diagnose with oddsism. He would have love withheld from him based on his behaviors. So every time i saw him rocking back and forth, i did everything i could to avoid displaying those behaviors. If you know, the sound of a spoon on asramic bull was painful to my ears.