How Hard Did You Try?

The more that you feel like inadequate, or that you weren't good enough, you tried harder. And and when you were trying really, really hard, how overwhelmed did you feel? I i felt like i was always like, pushing against a wall all the time, right? Your problem isn't that you're unable; it's that you're pushing against something that is immovable. The solution is to stop trying to push a mountain. You've been doing this for years, and you've been trying and trying and trying, and all your effort is futile. It's a whole big mess of worthlessness.