How Much Space Do You Have to Change Your Habituated Patterns of Thinking and Feeling?

How much capacity do I currently have for changing my habituated patterns of thinking and feeling? This is a big one. Do I know how to take responsibility without blame? Am I free from those binaries of good or bad success or failure? Or do those binaries trap me and control me? Always trying to hustle, to earn, goodness, success and living in fear and avoidance of failure and being thought of as bad? Lastly, do I know howto affirm, validate and celebrate myself and my own self-worth, especially in an unfamiliar environment? Everything that I just said is an incomplete list of all the invisible shit that I have to spend enormous amounts of time, energy and frankly money