i really got in to, i got in touch with my grief podcast. It's stupid to call it a podcast, because if we hadn't checked in like this. This is one that i've been going back to a lot during this crazy time and our lives. I know how lucky we are that it happened so early. Ye, my mam went through a miscarriage at five months, like i can't. I just have a friend who went through it at 12 weeks, like i. Actually did take comfort in knowing like there. So i'm in this web of women in present, past, present and future, that has gone through this. And im i hope that this isn