How to Find Faith and Hope in Seasons of Prolonged Disappointment?

My question is, how do you find faith and hope n seasons of prolonged disappointment? And pain. It's been eight to nine years of dealing with moral failures, an leadership rejection and opposition, job loss, and then finally, a job loss. A spiritual leader told me i to manage my expectations when i express anger o confusion. Other leaders have told me they've never been in a situationer prayer didn't change things. Others have said, i will make god angry, and he will send something worse, or allow something worse. I refuse to be anything but honest with god,. So excellent question. H you are clearly at a wall. Thank you so much.