The Pain of Unbelief

I never truly felt the pain of unbelief until I began to believe. So it's remarkable that unbelief is not a status in that line at least, prior to belief, but it's a status as part and parcel of belief. We're not ourselves until we somehow recognize ourselves as being more than ourselves. There's this, if grace woke me to God's presence in the world,. it also woke me to his absence.