I think of subconsciously exerting control. It's like we need to feel like our past selves had control and our current day selves had control. And i do wonder whether when you come out the other side of treatment successfully, it can seduce you back into that older mind set. But if you're entitling yourself to own the good, then you should take responsibility for the bad. The truth is probably more that you shouldn't take much ownership of anything, the bad or the good. But it feels better, yes? Ye oh, yess. Ahem. Yes. I love everything you just said. I think it definitely is part of this illusion of control, which is