i have more fear for my own children and grandchildren, because i really know, in way that i can't not know, that they can die. My son now, when he says, call me, he always puts brackets. Not bad newsa ha, ha, ha. That's the retl eat ande. At the other end of them is just enormous awe at the preciousness of life, and what people like you can survive and still live and love again and dare to. And so i feel very grateful every day that i'm alive. Every night i don't really believe in god, perse but i thank god, and i say all my children's names, i