No, I'm a Bad Boy Now.

i was living in delusiona positivity for a while because things are going well, and like, ye. And then when things stop going while, you're like, where does the positivity come from? Like it is it come from other things, or for me? So then i just went on, like, i'm going to dig this ship into the ground. Spent like six months just, like going to rave drug sect - that didn't really work either. I would love, i would love it if those things worked. But i do think it's like in the alchemical laboratory of your life, you must do these experiments oryoron them,. Cause what if