I Don't Want the Influence of Jesus in My Life

Paul says there can be a point where you say, 'I don't want the influence of jesus or the spirit in my life' And so that's what he's getting at here. If i so allow this to determine who i am, there's no me left to make it here. But paul's relating this so that we know the enemy,. so that he can give us, give us hope hereas we're trained to become gardeners.