Every dream or goal i want to accomplish has artificial barriers attached to it. I am in undergradutatstate school, taking difficult, but ultimately useless courses such as organic chemistry. However, some people have skipped the line and have gotten into these combined programes with special academic privileges afforded to them. Through some miraculous act of providence, they have been given a golden ticket. This disparity is making me cyclical of the entire educational process and resentful in general. Is this kind of mentality toxic? Yes. It's incredibly toxic. And all that comparison comes back to ego.