Meditation - Is Meta the Best Way to Start?

i think starting with meta might have been better, a, that it would have been more fun. And also, a lot of the reason that it was hard was various psychological blocks and a, you know, self loathing or a,. you know, just different psychological patterns that meta is like very soothing for. So it av been more fun and easier. When i did get kicked off with metos, oh, this is, this is great. It was like delightful for me once i got the hang of meta. Once i got the hold of meta, in a way that, yes, many other practices haven't been like it, like, up. I want to figure out how