How have you reconciled this crazy profession, or have you? It's a long winding question. One of the key points for me happened probably about three or four years ago. In two thousand thirteen i had a very deep depressive episode again, for about six months. And this one was really triggered physiologically. I ran a fifty mile race in two thousand twelve, which was too much for im,. Aand not just in terms of listening to him, but reflecting back and forth between the two of us has been incredibly powerful.