No Facing Your Deepest Fears

Once you access these ridiculous levels of consciosness, ou know, coming back and living ordinary life and doing ordinary things, it's just its, it's a real struggle to motivate yourself. The other thing that i struggled with afterwards is i struggled with a profound a loss of purpose and motivation. It was like running actualized dot org. I really have to question, like, why am i even doing this? Who am i even teaching? Why am i teaching? What is the purpose of al this?"