When I got back from Vietnam doing my out in the world I Thought that was me. That's just the way that I am, you know, I'm fighting off All that kind of stuff that's who Espinosa is. It was all my behaviors. I've I confused my behaviors for who I Who I am and I let loose of it because then I was alone again. So those of us that pay that price You know, it's going to cost you something even in the training because pain is going to costyou something.