I think in a way Carnegie Mellon was really like you can be anything you can play anything and you sort of pushed yourself in every direction. Then you get out in the world and you go to these auditions and you could play 22 year old girl on blah blah blah and it was almost like I didn't know how to be myself. It was kind of hard to be a young woman and suddenly faced with what that game was of how you succeed as an actor when you're a young woman. The original part I'd auditioned for on sopranos was a stripper in the club who had to be topless and then got killed with a brick. You know and I remember