Suffering and Christian Tradition

i think there's a lot, unfortunately, about suffering and christian tradition, that's hogwash. I do not ive that the god who gave me life wants me to live a living death. But any one who's ever suffered that way knows that it's a life giving way to suffer. That if it's your truth, if it's your identity and integrity you can't not do it. There's another kind of suffering that is simply and purely death. It's death in life.