Is There a Ghost in a Child's Nursery?

i feel as though in that first section, we're set up to believe that the speaker is dead, right? We have him in a dead room. He refers to himself as immortal and posthumous. And he's dealing with childhood as dead and and becoming to live. I don't know how to say it, sorry, but it's like a coming alive again, coming alive, dying at the same time. Maybe writing is something beautiful, and maybe writing is something terrible, and you are stuck there.