The Kingdom of Heaven Does Not Come With Signs to Beobserved

The kingdom of heaven does not come with signs to be observed. God is not an object that can arise in consctensy. When you use god without out knowing yourself, it's a mental idol. But when you know who you are beyond the person, and it's not a conceptual knowing, its sensing, the light of consciousness that you are, that spacious. Its an analogy, spacious luminous. The consciousness that manifests through you, that becomes thought, but is not thought, is prior to thought. And maybe at that moment when you say, i gave up, you're no longer looking out there, and you become aware of the light that you used to look for yourself