Are You Still Jumping?

So for forty four years, you've been used to a pattern of jumping or striving for one acceptance to the next. Now that you're free and you're validated, is that a habit that's been hard to break, or are you still jumping? And what's the difference now? You're not needing to be an acceptance because you know your diagnosis, it makes sense to you, and you're free. So what's the different? What are you find is the difference? Still striving for acceptance. Like it still, it's still there. But i think for me now, if i'm making sure that that acceptance is from the right people, the ones who care, the ones