I was also just drinking and throwing away the like sneaking drinks in the kitchen I always remember to happen Michael J Fox had that problem and he told that story and it was haunting to me because it sounded familiar. That's how you can tell when somebody's using and I forget it every time until I see it happen in front of me is a person that leaves a lot really people that goes to the bathroom a lot for something that seems like they didn't really need to go to the kitchen. It started sort of manageable and then when was the do you remember the first time you're like I'm gonna start keeping this in my bag or I'm gonna have the other vodka that my family doesn