Do You Know Where to Find a Dharma Teacher?

People who are not part of lineages should reach out to people who know the stuff. There's lots of places to find this, including forums and meditation centres. Find some real people to talk to, whether it's over the phone or in person. And if you feel like something is making you really angry or whatever, just look at that as a good sign. You can get help with mental health issues by joining e p r c.