And at the point where, you know, the industry i worked in had largely shut down, at the point i've left my family home and left my children in that family home. At the point i didn't really have anywhere to live, at the point where i don't really know if i'm going to have a living after all this ends, i then kind of, if i hadn't stayed completely intoxicated, i think i would have been forced to have to ask myself the questions about how i had behaved in that marriage. And i was asking myself those questions anyway. But i think what might you hontor say, the

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thing about the understanding that a d h d may be true for me is it made sense of so many of the things i was profoundly troubled by having been that makes sense, yes,

miste somit. I think so many this porcards have just convee that ago tis is so relatab a of every when you talk of and youare divergent people. It's like a freaky thing where you go. It's like youre talking to me about parts of my life. Er so relatibl. Yes, i think that idea of creating narratives, my whole life, until i had an autism diagnosis, i hated people who like football. I thought they were bad people. A ye, now i realize it's ecause i went to football matches with my dad as a kid, and they were noisy. And i felt unsafe at those. And i don't like it when people shout and are noisy. And it's not that they're bad people. And i've but i've connected that i've gone, i feel really unsafe here. These people must be bad. And i've had this sort of real viceral. And ye. But if it in what i'm fascinated by, cause the so much of what you're saying, i gues you're talking about the sort of social model of disability, you knowthat that the things which are disabling don't necessarily come from within us. They come from the way we're treated as new or divergent people. And and i was interested when you am tweeted about ad use, that i've ben diagnosed as newra divergent and that was the first time i'd seen some one, a newly diagnosed person, using the language of newra diversity. Werl, where did, i guess? I ment where? Where did those sort of ideas come from? Because they seemed quite at odds with the sort of medical model of o neura divergence, which is, you know, theres something wrong with you.

Yes? Am, honestly, all from my psychiatrist, an er, when i got my assessment, they assigned a psychiatrist to me for that sessment. And i was pretty brought in. And i think we can't necessarily have this conversation without talking about the importance of ticktock and all this, to be perfectly honest. And there was a thing a couple of years ago, and several articles written about it, and ouow, it was a bit of a talking point for or so that tiktock was this absolutely hideous thing, because it was convincing people they had by polar disorder. And them, er, christ, you now trying to reel them off, and theyre not coming to mind. But am that essentially tiktock was convincing people they had all sorts of a deep seated mental health problems and the like er. And wasn't that terrible, basically, that, you know, here was this thing that you were watching for, ostensibly, you know, make up teutorials and dance vidios, and now it was convincing everybody that they were broken and that, you know, they needed fixing. And wasn't this awful? However, in the last few months, there's been quite a lot of articles by psychiatrists saying, holy ship, the number of people who are actually artistic, who are who do actually have a d h d, who do actually have p d, who would, who would never have looked into this, who would never have come forward, were it not for the fact that they started seeing a few things crop up, for all, that's interesting, that sort of describes me. And then, because they liked that, then another video comes up and another video comes up, until the amount of material they've seen about it feels like its talking so directly to them that it's, it's an unignorable that you have to then think, well, i really should look into that. The actually, tiktock, to a degree, may well have convinced a number of people who do not have any part of, do not have any new any who are not neuror diverse necessary that they might be. But the whole point of going for an assessment is to find out whether that is actually true of you.