The Absolute Compass of Life

For me, it was obvious since i was like seven years old, that that's what i want from life. For example, living a life with passion, purpose and not wasting my life is non negotiable. Another one for me, was the pursuit of philosophy, truth and profound understanding. There is no life for me without this. So when i heard that such a thing exists as awakening, before i even had one,  it was absolutely clear that i needed to have it. I don't even understand how people can live life without this. It doesn't compute in my world. E um.