Is There a Church Where Our Shepherds Deny?

I was interviewing a fellow called derrick cummins, who's been a protestant for a while. Ended up choosing orthodoxy as a catechumen. And i texted my eastern priest frind, and black dod. There were times, as i was listening to derec ad im i cannot love orthodoxy to be true. So i text him and i say that. Here's what he said back to me. He said, my friend, you are eating my daily bread. But that's the age old temptation a spiritually pure church. This is the spiritual manifestation of the primordial fight or flight mechanism. We want to run away from the church where our shepherds deny, shepherd denies