The Pain I Caused in My Life

In my life review I experience all of the pain that I gave away in my life. The Christians would say sin that I caused in my life which would which for me was the pain That I caused others to suffer and I experienced it from inside of them as they were experiencing what I was doing to them while I was doing it to them. And then,  I was also inside of me experiencing all my reasons and emotions for causing them this pain simultaneously so you're being re assimilated into a greater hole if that is what happens to all of us.